As i sit here all alone

Surrounded by my loneliness

My self consciousness,my shame

I see people around me

Going about their way

People to meet,places to go

And I keep sitting still



Drown myself in the tunes

Can't wait to be all alone

But my inner self smirks

and asks me

Isn't this the same

Loneliness is a constant companion

People come and people go

What remains,what stays

Painful reminders of my plight

The loneliness in my life



I can feel it devouring me

Bite by bite

Eating from my heart

Creating tiny holes

I say stop,its hurting me

But the savage beast goes on

Consuming every inch of me

Leaving a void,a space

For my loneliness to feed on.................................................................................................................

When darkness surrounds your soul and there is no escape to your loneliness,you turn back and look at what went wrong.Where did you lose it?How did you reach this stage?And most importantly-Where do you go from here?

When we are children..it all looks so easy..life seems beautiful.We are taught by everyone-follow the rules,do the correct thing and you'll turn out just fine.There are parents to look after you,a warm cocoon called home and its just like heaven.So what happens that turns that heaven into hell.After all ,people wonder,"didn't i follow the rules"."I did everything just right".Then how did the end came out so wrong.

I stand in front of the mirror today and can't bear to see myself.Its like i'm dead.Disassociated from my senses and my world.I am the classic example of how things can go horribly wrong when you least expect it.I don't want to keep going.I don't want to take the next step.I don't want to face anyone anymore. I don't want to keep up with the world.You're asking-do i want to die?The answer is NO.I want to live more than ever before.Desperately clinging on to what is left of me,to save what is not lost.Gasping for breath,crying for help...............and nobody to hear me...........

Know my story and you'll never be too sure about how you'll end up in your life.

Know my story and you'll believe in fate.

Know my story and relate with the pain.

Know my story and you'll forget your own......................................